where did you go, my lovely?

the school year has begun and there is no sign of my estudiante favorito. i didnt say school year...yea i did. i shouldnt, but to day we are adventurers! this blog is going to die soon; it is already pretty comatose, no brain function, kept on life support to satisfy the family's selfish need to hang on. sometimes theres no turning back is all.

the last post was from the summer. yea. long ole time ago. last i time i wrote, he was saying good bye, 'ill see you when the colors of the leaves turn orange, your favorite color.' then he nudged my chin between his finger and thumb, kissed me on my forehead, turned and slid out the door.

none of that happened. he did say bye for the summer tho.

i wasnt supposed to see him over this seasonal break, i did tho.

i am a mess in so many ways. i constantly get myself into terrible situations, some with consequences that necessitate a visit to a medical professional.

i had to make a trip to visit a doctor who handles lady business. it is a sneaky venture to say the least. nonchalantly wander in, and then attempt a speedy exit unnoticed by bystanders.

i went in, stripped, got felt up, was made extremely uncomfortable and ashamed, got some Rx and put my clothes back on.

as i was exiting the facilities, just about out the door, i see my favorite. he was geared up and talking to some contemporaries. working rotations at my gynecologist office.

he was gorgeous and had i not been drowning in embarrassment i would have appreciated it more and would be able poetically detail his appearance ad nauseum. i do believe he was wearing a long sleeve, striped, button up shirt, that i want to say was a light purple, lavender, something.

i saw him, with a smooth effortless casualality he says hello. (yes i made up the word, causalality; it is casual but a noun...i think. it doesnt matter, i think you are picking up on my intention. ALSO, yes it is meant to look like causality, because love has a body count.) he also said my name and waved at me in that kind of brush off, salute, chop motion, which is not as dismissing as im making it sound now.

after awkwardly acknowledging each others presence i realize that i am in the most embarrassing health facility imaginable. (embarrassing because of the touching, not because of the ladyness of it all. (wow im making up words all over the place)) it hits all of a sudden, i know what hes doing here, he knows why i am here, and my eyes hit the floor because i cannot handle normal adult situations in my life.

all i could think was, he could totally find out what brought me here, the prescription pad resolution and the overall quality of the lady bits.

it was nice to see him tho.